23 September 2018

Kenapa Izzati Kenapaa

Ramai yang keep on tanya 
Zaty.. why u give up your career beb. 
Everyone chasing for this. Its like yo lifetime dream job kan.Rugi la. Give up  just to take care of your family.
ull never know. Sooner or later if your marriage going wrong. Then U hv nothing. Kesian mak ayah spend so much for you to success.
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Its true indeed. 
I was once a software engineer and gaji monthly diaaa toksah cakap.  3 bulan dah bleh bwk mak ayah p umrah. Gila tak heaven. Memang this is my ambition dari kecik and i hv earned it. But now knapa end up selling online with these panda eyes. Swallowed face & muak baby all over your scarf?
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Being a career woman definitely iz my top dream during my teen ages. And achieving my dream job was a great news for my parent. 

Back then before. I enjoyed developing software for devices.
But now,lepas kawin ni. i have to say. I tremendously love to develop my kids MOREE. (Nampak tak betapa suka sgt tu)

I hv to admit im an overly protective n paranoid mom.( Kdg2 nak hantar kat orang. Rase mengigil. Padahal parent2 lain relax je kan.. ni antara kelemahan si izzati ler kot. Haaa) yg ni one of my factor jugak la kenapa i choose to take care of my kids rather than giving them up to anyone else.

Software development is a dynamic field. This is the beauty of it. If u already know the basic. U can go wild in this field.
With google, u can go beyond everything. 
While watching my kids , still ,i can browse for new technologies and equipped myself with new ilmusss (tp. I hv to agree, bukan senang nak cari masa free to do all those browsing while taking care kids). Tp. Akan ade masa juga depa tidoq ka.. depa ralit tgk tv ka.. time tu boleh ja dibu buat kerja freelance and everything..
.still  can prepare ourselves to get back into track later.. 
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This is not the end of the end of my chapter.  Nnti anak2 dah besar skit. 
Mungkin dibu dah kurang paranoid n boleh join balik geng2 software.(rindu tau tak). Tq semua for your concerns.
Doakan dibuu kawan2. 
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21 June 2016

Married Life

Sounds great right?

Ya. Great life with great commitment and  responsibility.
Not that I am not thankful. just wanna share how I have to struggle to keep on living.
Of course i have reach double happiness but not to mentioned double expenses as well.

So, marriage is not just u love me, and i love u.
U have to be
 tolerate
Strong
strong
strong
and
strong

Struggling for money is one thing.
Struggling for mother in law is another thing.

Allah..keep me strong,keep us strong
so that I can stay happy and strong for my habibi
;)

14 August 2015

Nightmare



I keep on having bad dreams recently
im planning to get rid those bad dreams by filling my days with healthy activities
balik rumah.. penat.. terus tido lena without having any dreams yang membukan bukan

mb sbb aku selalu overthinking..
n terbawak bawak masuk mimpi..
harapnye malam ni tade mimpi ngeri dah..

Aminnn..